Out of money, Out of time...

The dream life is over... Reality just bitch-smacked me and now its time to get back up... time to follow my own advice...

Trailer...

For those of you who stumble upon this blog... (all two of you...) Here is the trailer for the film being talked about here...

Under the wire and almost worth it....

I am tired, so i will have to make this quick. Under the wire, day late, dollars short, we have sent it off to sundance. Hopefully this will all go somewhere. Although, it will probably only go where all other things go, away.

The goal reached, now to catch a break.

Well folks,
Thats it. The rough is as complete as its gonna be for now. The copies have been printed, and now its just time to wait. Wait for someone to swallow this whole thing and hope for the best. It's a wonderful and a terrible thing all at the same time. I don't know how to describe it. i have gone through many trails throughout this process. Not many of them posted here unfortunately. Anyway, from the battle of day 7 to overcoming the orwellian orders and the hhh version (i'll explain it another time). In the words of the subject, "i have no idea how this all came together and got done. Then again, I do."

It's been a while

Well, It certainly has. Anyway, here is the update.... nevermind, there really is no update. I am still poor, and trying to make this thing work on a large scale in the never-ending pursuit of the green-backed montser we all chase, My Boss, we'll call him H-Squared for now, is still a complete asshole, and can't be trusted with the simplest tasks up to and including showing up for a meeting that HE arranged and called for, which means i have to drag my stupid ass out of my office in NJ and schlep into the city just so that even if we do have a meeting, it's a five minute thing that could very easily have been done over the phone. On top of this whole pile of shit, my girl and I are fighting about almost everything (the kitchen sink has yet to piss her off in some form or another...) so, it's been a hell of a couple of weeks.

Also, now he's seen the most recent version of the film, in which he does not have a interview. I am of course, fine with this, because I have been trying to get this interview for about 9 months at this point and I've been stood up more times than the fat girl on prom night by him. But now that he's seen that he is not in every fucking shot, suddenly its a big fucking emergency that we sit down and do an interview so that he may spend about an hour of my time masterbating into the camera about what a great fucking guy he is. What a crock of shit.

Now, don't get me wrong, I am a firm believer that the human mind is the most flawed thing in the world, and everyone's got their thing. but this guy is one pickel short of a car... (yes, it doesn't make any sense, thats the point.) He's a sociopath. Now, I'm not kidding, lookup the meaning of asociopath, and you will find this guys picture. Smiling for the cameras after beating his kids.

This guy likes to put up the impression that he has alot of money, and just can't wait to spend it. There are two problems here... 1. He doesn't have the money and 2. he still can't wait to spend it. This is not really a problem for me, except when it interupts the funding for this project.

So let me get this straight, you can't pay me my meager wage to keep me fed and full of RX meds, but you can by yer fucking ho of the week that diamond encrusted dildo so she can fuck you with class?

And you think I'm the asshole? Fuck you.

Anyway, I'm so tired of this fucking movie, I just need it to be over and I only have myself to blame for it not being done. I am just so sick and tired of people telling me what the movie should be when I know what it has to be for the truth of the event. I can only make the footage do so much, it's like asking an automechanic to make a corvette out of a toothpick and dental floss.

Anyway, you've heard enough...

The road to completion....

Well... I realize that it's been a while... I doubt that many of you noticed. Anyway, I have now officially been rejected from the two festivals that i entered. The funny thing is... I'm kinda glad in a "fuck 'em" sort of way... Now begins the re-edits.
For those of you that don't know, re-editing a film is much like... well, editing anything. You have this whole piece, complete and yet flawed... very flawed... And now you have to go back and fix it. The problem is, by this time, you have gotten to know and own and reason for every second, every reason and statement in the entire project, you can watch the entire movie from start to finish muted and still know every line that comes up. It's like creating a human body, and then finding out that the bones are too brittle in some places. Now, of course the easiest way and probably best way to fix the problem is to start from scratch and just clean-slate the entire thing. However, this is a terribly cold view, and if you love your product, you will fight like hell to stop yourself from throwing down your rough cut and chopping the whole fucking thing to bits using a goddamn rusty chainsaw. So then, you try and go back in and fix in some places, and leave the stronger parts alone...
Sometimes, it works, other times, you make one section stronger, and the sections around it then either don't fit, work, or just in general become weak. And then what the fuck do you do? The worst thing is when you spent so much time doing this, and you go for comments. It's kinda like having a kid, and then hearing someone else tell you how you fucked him up, and then what you need to do to make him perfect. It stings a little more over time, especially when you realize that the person is right.
Now, knowing this person is right, as well as knowing the person, makes it all the more difficult to take the opiniion seriously. For you film people out there, this is also hard when the person you ask is not in the line of work that you are. It's like asking a cheese maker to judge how an chicken is raised. Now granted, they are similar, but just different enough to cause trouble when trying to judge it.
Anyway, so now, I'm working on another idea to clear my head, which will hopefully give me enough distance to really come back and attack this thing.

Goodnight, and Good Luck....

Goddamn I hate the French...

Well... it didn't get in to Cannes...
I'd like to say that this doesn't effect me... but it still sucks... Anyway, back to post, gotta finish this movie... and then move on...

In the words of a very wise man that was asked to make one statement about all situations, he said:

"This too shall pass."